Game addiction

             I’m addicted to one online game like I never did before. It’s like a hurricane that swipes out all my other thoughts and holds all my attention. I started to play this game three month ago, and now I’m almost an upper level player. My primary Shikigami has been upgraded to the top level. This is the only game I ever played that last for so long and have been accomplished so many achievements.

           I would never plan to be addicted to a game, especially at this point, when I’m only one semester away from graduation. When I start to play this game, I never pictured myself still playing it in January 2017, nor pictured me winning any PvP or PvE battle. To master a game or to devote myself into game is never my intention. Game is always for fun, a very leisure kind of fun to me. Besides, I’m very good at being distracted. And now, I doubt my definition for “very leisure kind of fun” and doubt my ability to resist addiction.

           Future has such humble and mysterious character. It won’t show up until we look back to our life. Future is happening every second. Every move we make, each word we speak out, is every fresh beginning of our future. Back to the day I was downloading this game in a sunny day of October, that moment was the beginning of my addiction future. And the reason I can confidently say so is because now I am reviewing my life in the past few months. I couldn’t confidently say for how long it would last and what impact it would brought to me in the future because of thousands of moves I’ve made and about to make. I could imagine thousands of possible futures based on what I am doing and thinking right now, now, now... But none of them is real until after few month I decide to review my life again. Future is imagination before it gets real. When it gets real, it is memory. I’m writing this essay about my addiction to a game, what future would it lead to?